InsaneJournal

Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	"Cancer" -- My Chemical Romance

Getting Existential Again
I suppose it is just a trait of mine, or some result of the trauma of my life. I often find myself reliving those years, in my mind. If I did this, if I did that, if I did the other thing. I'm starting to work out the pain I've kept bottled up inside me, all the sorrow and anger and self-hatred.

I find it strange that I am one of the few who can get the body to cry, when I haven't cried in decades.

On a similar note, I've become fascinated by certain genres of music, and certain artists in particular. I am a fan of MCR (no emo jokes, please). Occassionally, you will find me humming something from the CD The Black Parade. I thought I'd share a particularly poignant song from that CD, and its lyrics.


Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my Aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me
In all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you.

Now turn away,
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body,
All my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
But counting down the days to go.
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know,

That if you say, (If you say)
Good-bye today, (Good-bye today)
I'd ask you to be true (I'd ask you to be true)
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you...

Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you...

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